The wait is almost over....

I was going to start this new post by saying  "tomorrow I will learn my fate."  After a second, I realized this wasn't true.  I already know my fate.  I've known that since I accepted Jesus as my Savior.  The amount of comfort that gives me is indescribable.  I can't possibly imagine this wait without my faith.

That's not to say that this hasn't been completely exhausting and nerve racking.  The battle to keep my mind from going to those deep dark places has drained me of my energy.  Yet, my nerves are so raw that I can't seem to rest.  All this and trying not to show my children my concern, well, it's overwhelming.  Thank God I'm not doing this alone.  I remember that the Holy Spirit lives in me and is giving me His strength.  I'm also frequently reminded of the people who love and pray for me.

So, tomorrow (hopefully) I will not learn my fate but, I will be tested and rewarded for my faith - either way.  It's easy to have faith when life is going well.  Just like it's easy to take your health for granted when you feel good or to stay committed to losing weight when you're having great success.  It's harder when life gets messy.  When you feel like crap.  Or when you hit that plateau in your weight loss.  Is that when you give up?  No.  That's when you grit your teeth, steady yourself and BELIEVE.  Believe in the words of your heavenly father, believe things will get better, believe that your hard work and effort will pay off.

Lately, I feel that the more I try to follow God's will for me, the more I am challenged.  I could moan and whine and cry "no fair" or, I could take it as a compliment.  Satan is scared of the work I can do in the name of Jesus.  He should be!  God will see me through this fire and I will come out more refined and prepared to do His calling.  Be afraid Satan, be very afraid!  For my wait is almost over but yours has only just begun!!!